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:( Bleh. Im about to go take out my aggression playing soccer.

Unreasonably Understandable

It is so difficult to be content. You may have all the necessities in life and more, and yet never feel content. I find more often than not that I'm simply lonely. It's the worst kind of loneliness, the unreasonable kind, the kind that will only be satisfied with one thing, one person, one goal. Its difficult to forget and even more difficult to get rid of. But then, nothing in life is easy. In fact everything worthwhile is difficult.

Happiness

Fear. It leads to anger, depression, anxiety, and all those wonderful things. As such, if you are angry at someone, or are overly depressed all the time, it is usually connected to a fear. Not necessarily a fear of something like spiders or ghosts or jellyfish (I am deathly afraid of jellyfish...) but a deep-rooted, subconscious fear. The fear that someone doesn't care for you . The fear that you cant trust someone. The fear that someone is going to do you harm. My mother apparently has a deep-rooted fear of people thinking her house is a mess. :) The key to being happy, then, is to overcome your fear. Why care about what someone thinks about you? If they don't like the fact that you wear yellow socks, thats their problem, not yours. If you cant trust someone, then don't tell them anything. Find someone else. If you think someone is going to harm you, then avoid them. Or tell someone about it. There is always a way out, always a way around, always a way to become happy. :)

Live, Love, Laugh

Why do we worry about things? Does any of it matter? Not really. We wont even remember it in two years. We'll have new worries, new things to fret about, to pine over. If it wont matter then, why should it matter now? Why focus on the things that make you worry? God has those things in hand, he will take care of them. Live in the moment, its more rewarding. Love everyone around you, and you will be loved. Laugh often and much, because life is funny. :)

Remember

Its funny how people forget about things. Sometimes its not a conscious decision, but more subconscious. I tend to forget things that cause me pain to remember, like a memory, or a song, or mom telling me to clean my room, or something like that. Its not because I choose to forget it, its just because I'd rather not remember it.

Change

I have many friends, but only one or two very, very close ones. The kind that are as close as family, and, on rare occasions, can be closer. It seems, however, that I am coming to a point in my life where these friends wont be around as much as they used to, they're moving on and away and into differant episodes of their lives. I can replace them, maybe, but it will always be difficult, figuring out who you can trust with your secrets and who you cant, who will be there to help you out when your mad at the world and who wont. For a long time it'll be lonely. But you always have to keep moving. Change is a good thing, because it keeps things moving, and movement is life. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it is welcomed, but things always, always, will change.